Be Authentic and be yourself

 I know that is like the conventional journaling medium shifted to the digital footprint. In my assumption, there are few readers in this blog hahaaa *siapa gw.  Let's convey Hafni's mind and thoughts about life, especially life after a quarter-life crisis. *Disclaimer: Alhamdulillah w udh lewati my quarter life crisis (24-25 yo). *pardon my impromptu writing structure, grammar, tone of expression, cohesion, and conciseness  :((, omg, it's so bad without Grammarly. 

Before continuing the "Self-Authenticity" topic, I just ask myself: 1) What is your self-value; 2) What do you want to achieve in 1-5 years, and the long-term journey until at least 60 years old; 3) Figure out your SWOT analysis in current time and probably 1 month again. All of the prompts of the self-authenticity journey are revealed in the three following passages. It would be as summarized from the self-help book genre which I read such as 80/20 Pareto Principle by Richard Koch, Almost Adulting by dr. Nadhira Afifa, Grit by Angela Duckworth, and not only YouTube videos but also Spotify Podcast that have self-improvement content. 

1) Self-value

Self-value is the condition while you as the individual entity define yourself without external interruptions, barriers, and validity. Just remember who you are and why you live in this dunya (re: world). Who are you? Please define yourself in three words. 

1. X

2. Y

3. Z

Describe all of those keywords for yourself. Make your own description. 

2. Targeted Achievement

Although life is unexpected and couldn't predicted mostly in the VUCA, TUNA, and BANI world (I don't care about how to distinguish the similar meanings of acronyms, just concluded as unpredictable things), we must have several fundamental targeted achievements that need the GRIT mindset and commitment. You can read the GRIT book for deeper understanding and insight *pardon w mager bettt nulis book summary GRIT. I think GRIT mindset is an essential thing that everyone must have. 

3. SWOT analysis

Just take 5 minutes to evaluate your SWOT analysis while u feel upset and overwhelmed. 

There are several pieces in my thoughts this night, right now I'm so sleepy. In the end, self-authenticity is the life journey that can drive the pureness of your actions and mind in unconditional things with an unconditional love mindset (re in Bahasa & Islamic ways: ikhlas w/o pamrih, if one day u achieved sth from ur action). 

Cheers

Hafni 

Reflection for the end of 2022

 Hii everyone.. 

thanks for read this post, u're truly 'kepo' / 'randomly wanna know' my life hahaa. Pardon me this text contains inappropriate grammar, structure, & vocabularies for formal writing.

It's my first time publish my self reflection after a long time not post any moment in socmed (especially IG). In reality, life is always up and down. We don't know that moment happen. Honestly, 2021-2022 are the hard years for me, maybe not only me but all of the people in the world. Specifically, in 2021-2022 I'm not getting the memorable achievement. I just take my daily routine as master student, freelance worker, and daughter. 

In 2020, I'm getting up set bcs my father gotta sick. I feel sad and uncontrollable feelings w/ the reality, I'm not appear like that in all of people, but sometimes I just take daily journaling for self healing.  I always do self motivation to my self, in uncontrollable situation I must keep running on the life goals & dream. Meanwhile, the opposite reality happen in my life hahaaa. Yeah, external factor can't be controlled and I must adaptable w/ that situation also priority to take care my Dad. 

Okai. Life is go on. I can't well-prepared for sth bucket list in my life, finally I can't reached that. Yeah, I must accept the another alternative and  I got two rejection in scholarship selection. I feel mad and fortunately my dad covers my UKT *honestly, I don't have any idea to take that bcs u know the social pressure S2 w/ duit ortu menjadi suatu hal yg membuat my self image and self pressure "u're not independent, u're so weak, omg u're dah S1 but can't cari duit sndiri", but for the wisely reason  and some consideration from my family also the real situation to prioritize Dad healthy. I take the scholarship from my father for my Master Degree. Thanks a bunch my lovely Dad for this chance but I know S2 w/o scholarship is hard, so I must 'nge rem' my second prioritize pengeluaran :((.

Well in another side, I think all of my achievement which I prepared while undergrad student didn't adjustable w/ my life after graduation. Oh okaii, life is go on, I must accept that but the effect I'm getting decrease of self esteem, omg :(((. From that, I feel uncontrollable again and got the unhealthy mentality. Okai, life is go on. 

Long short story, I just wanna really thanks to my self for this 2021 n 2022. You must keep grateful, cheerful, GRIT, and always realize the self esteem.  Don't set the high expectation in external factor, u must take self discipline, professional, prioritize ur self value, and adjust it w/ the real opportunity. Don't be people pleasure just for 'menyenangkan orang lain' but u just  take the emphatize w/ people life.  

Hopefully, I got the best version of my self for now & tomorrow. Always grateful, be ur self, and know "who I am". I'm not set the specifically life achievement in 2023. I just wanna enjoy my self esteem w/ the optimistic and discipline effort.

Cheers,
Hafni 

File Vertical Garden

 Leafet Vertical Garden, run down, dll

Pancasila

 1. Belief in the Almighty God

2. Just & civilized humanity

3. The unity of Indonesia

4. Democracy guided by the inner wisdom in the unanimity arising out of deliberations among representatives

5. Social justice for the whole of the people of Indonesia

Plant Tissue Culture

 

Hii Everyone. Its the randomly post which I'm getting curious w/ Plant tissue culture. I think it's the awesome experience practically Plant Tissue Culture. Honestly, I'm waiting so long time since SHS, bcs I'm getting curious with tissue culture technology both in biotech and in molecular biology. I know the practicum just the basic knowledge of plant tissue culture *w/improper lab-tech hahaa, so sorry. However, I'm enjoying this experience. 

Thanks for the opportunity to learn basic tissue culture. Hopefully, Indonesian horticulture and floriculture can implement the effectiveness of plant tissue technology. Asap Indonesian farmer must be implement the this technology w/ the high rate acceptance and R n D.

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